Since the moment I first conceived of Stella’s story, I knew it was going to be important. Certainly one of the most important things I’ll ever write. I knew there were going to be some moments that were harder to write than others. I knew it was going to push me physically, emotionally, and mentally in ways I hadn’t been pushed before (and it most assuredly has). But I also knew it was a story that I had to tell. That I HAVE to tell. And I am so eager to share that story with you. But I have to beg your forgiveness, because as our set release day approaches, deep in my gut, I know… Stella’s story isn’t ready yet.
To be honest with you, I could rush and put out Stella’s story on May 1st as originally planned. In fact, I had every intention of doing just that until yesterday. But it would kill me to have any regrets about Stella’s book. And I fear I would have regrets if we followed through with publication. I’d have that feeling (as I do now) that something isn’t right yet. And you all deserve better than that. You’ve waited this long, and I want to make sure the story you get is my best work. And frankly, Stella’s story deserves better than that. Because Stella’s story is the story of 1 in 6 women. That’s 1 in 6 of us, ladies. Stella’s story could be your sister’s, or your best friend’s, or your mom’s, or your teacher’s, or…yours. And because of that, the importance of getting Stella’s story correct is bigger than a release date.
So it is with regret that I tell you that ALL CLOSED OFF’s release date is being pushed to July 18th. I know this will sadden or frustrate some of you who have been patiently waiting for this book. And I know it’s farther away than you expected, but it’s the best my schedule would allow in the coming months. This was an incredibly difficult decision to make. In all honesty, I’ve been physically ill over it. I hate that I’m having to do this. But I must treat myself with at least as much compassion as I would treat others, as I hope I’ve treated Stella. I want you to have this book in your hands as soon as possible. I want that more than you all could possibly know. But more than that, I want you to have the right book in your hands. The one that does justice to the bold, beautiful, brave person that is Stella Santos. I hope you can understand and will grant me just a little more patience. Thank you for sticking with me this long. There is no word big enough to encompass my gratitude.